I took a bath. I ran the water for the tub, and this time, along with my Epsom salts, I put in bubbles… a bubble bath! I was feeling irritated, emotional, and just Done. I made sure the bath water was hot. As I started to carefully undress, noticing what was invisible under my clothing was so visible without.
Fibromyalgia is called an invisible illness as are so many other conditions. But really, they are not invisible if you pay attention. I think I am relieved that so many people just do not have the time nor the interest to pay attention.
I pulled my sweatshirt over my head. Ouch! That right shoulder has been jamming on me for a week. I turn to put the sweatshirt in the hamper… OUCH! My lower back is always a buggar. I slid off my slippers and sweatpants then the rest of my undergarments… I started looking at all the bruises. Some from falls, some from running into things, a few from merely using my massager on my legs. Then I peered at the hole in my stomach, healed now. I had a stomach tube protruding out of my belly for a while. Now, I just have two belly buttons.
I walked towards the tub but stopped, I turned around and looked at my face in the mirror. It was not the face of a healthy person. The lines of pain are present, the skin color is grayish, the eyes that once sparkled blue were dark, almost black. No, this was not the face of a healthy person.
I slowly crawled into that bathtub welcoming the searing heat. I slid down and let my whole self-fall beneath the water. It felt so good. I eased myself up and blew on some of the bubbles.
I was still here in this world. With all the bumps, bruises, and pain. I am still here. And I am enjoying my bubble bath.
~Kim
I have fibro, too. It’s not fun. But yes, we are still here! ❤
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Yes, we are! Thank you for stopping by and your comment! ~Kim
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Love the green toenails Kim. My kind of colour. I could not manage without the comfort of my daily bath. Bliss!
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I went for about a year without baths because of a tube in my stomach. They are bliss! Never taken for granted by me!
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getting clean
does mean
again
you win
and you
are the bomb
remember pam
here in salt lake city
she too has
the f word!
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I will! I do.
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good she joined toastmasters!
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Kim, this was a very sensual journey.
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Well… thank you!
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Exactly my experience just a couple of days ago sans the double belly button. It’s only this moment I live in now. I work hard to keep myself here. Such a delightful moment of hot bath and bubbles being blown. I’m going to hold onto the shear pleasure of it just a little longer. 🐚
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Oh Kim, you are amazing. Sometimes I read your posts and I just want to scream, nooooo. Fibro sucks and it is so damn unfair. But, through it all, you are a light, you have a brightness in you that cannot be dimmed. You are seriously awesome lady!!!!!!
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Wow, I’ll take that! All over a bubble bath?!?! You haven’t even read about me baking yet… I really enjoy your posts and think you are pretty spectacular yourself! xo~K.
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You’ve just reminded me that I’m overdue for some time in a bath full of bubbles or salts…
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Yes!
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I can’t submerse in water yet from surgery, would you take another one for ME tomorrow? 😛
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Yes I can do that just for you! I went through about ten months where I couldn’t take a bath due to a few surgeries… missed them! I got ya on this one!~Kim
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YAH looking forward to it!!! you can call it a public service 😛
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😂😂😂
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Loved this post Kim! And so vividly true.
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Thanks Kim. It was like you were writing my story. I trip over things, my right leg sometimes lags behind, and I run into things alot. I just had a very huge deep purple/red bruise on the inside of my thigh that I couldnt figure out how it got there…..along with others. I also get the pain lines on my face.
Blessings to you as you survive this agonizing diagnosis of Fibromyalgia. Its a life busted, but we must keep tracking on. 🤗😉💜
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💜💜💜
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I am glad you are here and that I have met you. You are a bit of hope in this world. Thank you.
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Thank you so much Kelly. I’m glad you are here too! Couldn’t imagine it any other way. xo
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