Just as Humpty Dumpty had his big fall, so did I!
As I reviewed 2018, I realized I was fighting not only frequent fibromyalgia flares since July, but my 51-year-old body was working through some harsh changes, illnesses, and despair. Eye-opener! I spent half of 2018 desperate for emotional as well as physical health! It took time and patience has never been my friend. The battle does eventually end. The only question is how to put me back together again? All the king’s horses and all the king’s men could not help me, I was going to have to put myself back together.
The work to restore my emotional and physical health has begun. When you are sick, and your symptoms are visible, in your blood labs and on X-ray, you are treated for that illness. However, invisible chronic illnesses are often overlooked during this time. As we know, just because you can’t see it does not make it less critical to treat! More times than not, our invisible illness amplifies during these ‘normal’ sick times. It takes an enormous emotional toll on us that can be quite devastating.
There is an upside, I lost 15 pounds! There is more, and I’m trying to remember what this struggle has taught me. Patience? Endurance? Strength? Possibly all three. I am well aware that the carpet gets pulled out from under us at any time. No warning. No safety net. Boom! Down we go … again and again … but eventually, we put ourselves together again.
I hope 2019 will be a kind year for you and me. Remember, live your best life!
~Kim
This lifted my spirit to read!
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Thanks, Kit!
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Well, you look great as well! Here’s to a fantastic 2019!
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Thanks so much! Cheers to 2019!
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My father passed away on October 1st…I’m experiencing the invisible effects of grieving and possible flares because of this loss…your post echoes my own thoughts, I have to find my way back to the healing rituals of self-care…I hope you find your way in 2019, too…I’ve missed your posts and I’m glad to see you on my feed again, Kim!
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Oh no. I am so very sorry to hear about your father. Grief is indeed invisible and at such a terrible time in life. I often wondered why we didn’t get some kind of scar or mark for everyone we lost, periods of grief that seemed unending… be kind to yourself. I’m so glad to hear from you! All the best for 2019.
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Thank you so much for your very kind words…some days I feel stronger than others…cups of tea and good books have been lifesavers these past few weeks!
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Sounds like great lifesavers! Good for you!!!
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Wishing you a healthy, happy and wonderful 2019
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Thank you much Bella!
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I am cheering for you! Big time!
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Thank you Wendi!
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always my pleasure.
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Glad to have you back Kim. Hope 2019 is kinder and gentler to you
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Thank you Steve! Good Lord, I hope so too.
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I hope so too. Happy holidays hun and hope to read more of you.
(If only we had that safety net sometimes)
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Happy holidays! Yes. A net please! 2019 will be a good year for us. (I know it.) xo
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I do too.
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It is so good to see(read)you back here, Kim! Here is to an amazing 2019!!! xoxoxo
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A very happy New Year to you as well my friend! I’m so glad to be writing again, Susan. I can’t believe how much I missed this. 💜💜💜
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I’m so glad to see you back Kim! Sometimes we just have to take whatever time it takes to heal, and I’m glad you were able to do that, or at least start the process. I hope this year turns out to be your best yet!
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So glad to be back, Terri! Yes, it certainly did take many months to feel better- whoa. Now it is building up my stamina. I was not very active the last 6 months. I will get there. Hope you enjoyed your winter holiday season! 💜
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Thank you for your love and support during my most difficult time. Wish we could just have a girls night and curl up and watch old movies and talk. Of course, we wouldn’t actually see the movie, we’d talk and talk. Hug and cry, and know we could always tell accept each other the way we are.
Good to see you back my friend.
My this year be kind to us…all of it. I had a good run the beginning of the year, but the last half has been awful. xoxo love Wen
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Awe… our girls night would SO be like you described. You had one heck of a journey in 2018!!! And I did as well. But. We fought and continue to battle our way back. May 2019 be kind to us both! Much love my friend. 💜
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