Fake It Until, Oh Stop!

I’m not a fan of the saying, “Fake it till you make it.” Just STOP being a faker. I just get mad when I hear, “Push through the pain.” Push t-h-r-o-u-g-h the pain??? Then what? There is no reward for pushing through the pain unless you are giving birth. A person with a chronic pain disease never reaches the other side! We never reach pain-free. So you go right ahead and push through while you fake it, Normal Person! (Whew, rant over, I think.)

I’ve been in bed since Tuesday of last week. Yep. Not real happy about the pile of mail that has accumulated on my desk in a matter of days. I got up to take a bath and that about sums up my week. Thankfully, I had written all my posts for last week and had them scheduled for posting. (Every single post was pre-scheduled!) I had some issues with my pancreas then a big old fibromyalgia flare decided to swoop in. Believe me, the things you tell yourself even when you know better. (Even when your husband is shouting at you to get back into bed … and not in a sexy way!)

All I could think was;

Get out of bed!

Make an attempt!

For crying out loud, do s-o-m-e-t-h-i-n-g!!!”

I was able to escape cognitive fog this time around. Now at least when you have cog fog, you really aren’t aware of time passing, so it can almost be a blessing; like a mini brain vacay! So I set up a little office in my bedroom. I have a bag put together of everything I need for a fibro flare (my fibro toolbox)  and did the best I could to maintain my cognitive abilities and wait out the severe pain episodes… I couldn’t believe it took an entire week.

So, spring approaches. I am preparing to venture outside once again. I feel like a bear who hibernates away most of the winter, but I was AWAKE the whole time, and eating! Well, at least I tried to make healthy choices. However, there is a time and a place for pop tarts. Just saying…

Live your best life!

~Kim