Moody Monday (Emma Blue)

I will try my best to explain…

I have had a nickname since high school, my friends began calling me Emma. (Long story.) Many of you know I wish my name was C.C. Rockefeller but we don’t always get what we want. C.C. Rockefeller would be the confident, smart ass, public persona part of me. (FYI: I don’t have nor have I ever been diagnosed with multiple personalities but I do respect those who have.) The part of me who is Emma is the best friend, the listener, the compassionate one.

BUT.

Emma Blue is just the best parts of me, all rolled up into one. I love that she has no fear. She could care less what others think and is never one to turn down a challenge! She is fun! She is who I long to be.



EMMA BLUE

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Emma Blue

is that you?

Once she’s here

I disappear.

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She is laughter

and revelry!

She is sunshine 

and the moon.

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Emma Blue

it’s your turn.

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I need to laugh

and feel the sun.

I want to dance

under the smiling moon.

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Emma Blue

I call…

Once she’s here,

I can disappear.

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k.Lynel

 

Moody Monday (I Seek)

I Seek

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when I reach out

I feel the pain

of unknown truth

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when I seek

I sense the tear shed

of kindred spirit

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a silent void

I recall moments

of careless freedom

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yet when I touch

I feel the past

not the living

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k.Lynel

 

My Night.

In my bed.

Breathing,

Rise and fall,

Veins beat with pain.

In the darkness.

In my body,

like a song.

Stillness.

Hold my breath,

Pain pulsating, no!

Foreign.

My body,

is my own?

Pulsing pain beats.

Never ends,

Rise and fall.

~k.lynel

My Brother, My Soldier

Kory was 37 years old when he died from a very aggressive form of cancer at the Brooke Army Medical Center, in San Antonio Texas. Kory was a Specialist in the U.S. Army. Kory became my little brother when he was 9 years old, we adopted him from South Korea. Kory was my brother for 27 years until his life ended on August 18, 2003.

He was holding our Dad’s hand as he left us. We miss him.

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Army Specialist.

My Brother, My Soldier

We are so far from home,

he and I.

Engulfed in a land so foreign to us,

a city within a city.

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At times he is stubborn and full of mischief.

Teasing and laughing, the brother I know.

There are times when he is reflective,

Speaking as if communicating with the Divine.

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He is so thankful for the help he receives,

and so apologetic when he is in need.

He loves and hugs all who are near,

Only they and I experience the fear.

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His body tires and his eyes close,

he puts his hand in mine.

I wait silently for him to wake,

and I greet him with a smile.

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I tell my brother he is a good soldier.

I tell my brother I love him so.

I tell my brother God is with him.

I tell my soldier it is alright

                                      …if he is called to go.

 

 

~k.Lynel

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The Sunshine Blogger Award

I would like to thank the Last Days OF Pompeii, the Fibro Butterfly herself for nominating I Tripped Over a Stone for the Sunshine Blogger Award! I was lucky enough to stumble across this fantastic blog on Twitter. She is insightful and witty. A great blog to check out!

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So the rule of eleven comes along with this award. I will answer eleven questions that were asked of me. I will ask eleven new questions and nominate eleven blogs. Here we go! (And I think you’ll have fun answering my questions!!!)

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My Eleven Questions to Answer

  1. Why did you start your blog? I honestly was just re-learning sentence structure. I had always been a writing/journaling kind of person. Then I ended up going through seven surgeries over a period of two years, and I lost a lot of brain power! I needed to learn to write again!
  2. What motivates you to write a post? Motivates me…? There are times when I have these ‘word snowstorms’ and I have to write! I feel all these things I need to say swirling around in my brain. I may write five or six posts and a few power poems in a day and then not write for a week. It is entirely hit or miss with my ability to put down thought on paper.
  3. What is your favorite all-time blog and why? I plead the 5th! I love blogs that are quick-witted and to the point. I love blogs that are truthful and heartbreaking. I love stumbling upon a brand new blogger and reading as they grow. I love variety!
  4. What are your blogging short-term goals and long-term goals? I wanted to blog about Fibromyalgia Syndrome Awareness. That was my short-term goal; awareness. My long-term goal is to be a resource for individuals traveling with (and without) a chronic illness as my husband, and I are preparing to spend a few years RVing full time. 
  5. What do you hope people take away from your blog posts? That you can live a good life WITH your disease.
  6. What is your favorite post that you have written on your blog and why? I would have to say, Hello God? It’s Me, Kim. I think we all look for something to believe in or not to believe in. We wonder what we did wrong to deserve whatever has happened to us or someone we love? I try to explain to persons, with and without faith, why I think bad things happen.
  7. What is your favorite activity? Oh, my! Well, it used to be bar hopping to see live bands! When I lived in Seattle, you paid one cover charge, and you could go from bar to bar and see these amazing bands! Now, I love writing, the solitude of it while being able to express my ideas at that very moment while still connecting to people.
  8. How do you promote creativity on your blog? That is a tough one, being a chronic illness blogger doesn’t really leave much room for creativity. It is what it is! I have started a series called Before I Tripped over a Stone, Fridays I talk about my life before fibro. Once in a while, I’ll write a ‘power poem’ post. (That’s my attempt at poetry!) I did start a second blog called A Stone in the Road where I feature and promote other bloggers, focusing mostly on chronic illnesses but from all niche’s.
  9. Are all readers welcome on your blog or are you a dedicated niche writer? All are welcome! Stop by for a visit I’m open 24/7!
  10. What motivates you to keep on keeping on? It struck me that even though I have been dealing with my disease for over 20 years and have been promoting awareness, many have not received the information! It’s a stubborn thing. I will continue to answer, inform, and encourage awareness until there is no need for it. 
  11. Which blogger inspires you? This entire blogging community inspires me! I have never been a part of such a welcoming, all-inclusive community! I think bloggers are some of the most aspiring, creative, and empathetic people I have ever come across! It is my honor to be a part of this inspiring community.

 

Eleven Questions For My Nominees

  1. Ice cream or french fries?
  2. Do you consider yourself a writer?
  3. What would you do if you could not blog?
  4. Have you already had your dream vacation or are you still planning it?
  5. Sports car or muscle car?
  6. What do you believe are the pros and cons of using cuss words on a blog?
  7. What is your favorite social media outlet?
  8. Defend your position as a cat person or a dog person?
  9. Favorite guilty pleasure?
  10. What was the last book you read?
  11. Who was the last person you said, “I love you” to?

And the Nominees are:

These are eleven blogs I’d like to bring attention to. There are so many more I would nominate, but I know they have already received the award or choose not to participate in such awards. So it’s up to these amazing eleven if they’d like to accept The Sunshine Blogger Award!

Live your best life!

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