RIP

My mom passed away today. I will be taking a break to attend to family matters.

Talking Bluntly about Night Time Chronic Pain

September is National Pain Awareness Month. I have a chronic pain disease called Fibromyalgia Syndrome. You can read what fibro is: here. (This is a typical night for me. I describe it as follows.) I think the hardest thing for a person with chronic pain is to tell you how they are doing. (Seriously.) You ask me... Continue Reading →

Revisiting Trauma?

I believe I am revisiting past physical trauma. I am struggling with a flare. This makes sense as there are so many significant changes happening in my life (selling my home and moving while flaring!). But. This flare is eerily similar to those flares I had right after the car accident I was in. How am... Continue Reading →

Have You Ever Been Happy Sad?

Does this make sense? Have you ever been happy and sad at the same time? Happily sad? Thinking of memories, some make you sad, but you are still happy to have these memories. That's where I find myself at this moment. I am happy sad... Currently, I am at our family lake home. This is... Continue Reading →

A Shame Filled Entitlement

Social Security is a Federal program we pay for every day of our working lives. I started working when I was 15 and paying into Social Security. I looked at those steep payments being taken from my check every week as a savings plans for retirement. I also knew in case of injury, I was paying into Social Security so it... Continue Reading →

Will You Fight for Me?

A while back I wrote about having to "make the dreaded call" to my doctor. Things were not going so well and I knew I was getting used to my medication. It just wasn't working anymore. So, time for new medications that come complete with side effects. The first two weeks are the worst, tapering... Continue Reading →

My Brother, My Soldier

Kory was 37 years old when he died from a very aggressive form of cancer at the Brooke Army Medical Center, in San Antonio Texas. Kory was a Specialist in the U.S. Army. Kory became my little brother when he was 9 years old, we adopted him from South Korea. Kory was my brother for 27 years... Continue Reading →

Hello, Shadow Boxer???

The dictionary defines shadowboxing as a form of exercise used for training in combat sports. In psychology "shadowboxing" is a process one uses to overcome a negative self-image so success can be achieved. In the book I co-wrote, The ShadowBoxers, Fighting Fibromyalgia, Your Personal Journal, we define Shadow Boxers as individuals who are fighting against a disease... Continue Reading →

Before I Tripped Over a Stone, Fridays, #12

The time had come for me to leave my position as a psychiatric technician. I have so many more experiences I could share. I could probably write a book, but that is not to be... I had developed bursitis in my right shoulder. Every restraint just pushed me further toward needing more and more medical... Continue Reading →

In the Begining…

Once you have learned you have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, you find relief for a split second. You have a diagnosis. Then complete fear as you realize, you have no idea what this diagnosis means? Fibromyalgia Syndrome, a chronic disease. This is where we all separate on our individual paths on our journeys through the ups... Continue Reading →

Before I tripped Over a Stone, Fridays, #11

I am still working as a psych tech on an adolescent crisis unit. These are my pre-fibro days. If you'd like to catch up, start with  Before I tripped Over a Stone, Fridays. #6. Just a reminder... The patients were being cared for by psychiatrists, psychiatric nurses, and certified therapists. The psychiatric technicians (like me) were responsible for... Continue Reading →

Before I tripped Over a Stone, #9

I am working as a Psychiatric Technician on an adolescent crisis unit. Previous posts on this subject are as follows: Before I Tripped Over a Stone, Fridays, #8 Before I tripped OVera Stone, Fridays, #7 Before I Tripped Overa Stone, Fridays, #6 It was on the 5th day After "N" was released I was reporting for... Continue Reading →

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